I personally don't like to be hurt. Often times I question my reason for living if people are just going to hurt me verbally and emotionally... I really don't like when I can't understand someone, or makes sense of what they're saying and I end up being shout at. It hurts. My heart begins to feel constricted and I can't seem to stop crying. Sometimes I wonder what they would do if I left and never came back. Sometimes I wonder what if I went out while it rained and got more sick than I already am now and just... die. They'd be sorry and for the people who actually love me... they'd miss me.
I'm almost done with my pre-requisites and I will be applying to the nursing program this Spring to attend next Fall. Hopefully I make it in. If not, I'm really going to be screwed. I kinda don't want to transfer to a CSU... I want to stay here at home. We'll see what happens. There's my cousin's wedding in a few weeks. I am and am not looking forward to it. :| Also, my mom is getting surgery... She's getting her gallbladder removed. Hopefully everything goes all right, but at the moment.. I could care less.
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